What is one thing I would change about the past? Why? Who will it affect?

    If I could change any event that has happened recently, I would change my attitude. The way I have spoke to not only the girl I stare at in my mirror, but others. About my life and my future and about how I feel negatively on certain situations. For example, my low grades or my "to good to reach" dreams. Sometimes when I think too much, all I begin to focus on are my faults. Though I assume it does not bother me, I notice that I start to second guess my talents, love and my future. I have said "I am worthless" because of the failing grades I get in subjects like Physical Science and US History. Also, I do not eat healthy. This is not good because I do not get the nutrition my body needs to function correctly. Eating is not the only issue, I am unhealthy because of the amount of sleep I receive. I lack the ability to fall asleep at a specific time of night and wake up 8-10 hours later. I struggle with breakfast, some days I might have a Flintstones vitamin and a cup of orange juice (to last me through the morning.) My emotions tend to fly everywhere and my immune system will eventually shut down. This is my reason for wanting to change my attitude because having a negative attitude toward myself helps me with absolutely nothing. This mainly affects me, but also the ones who love and care for me. Now how can I complain about that? At least I realize I have people who will always be there for me.

5.30.12

Interest, connection
Support, inspiration
Love, Destination
Forever
Because we are young
Until we are old
Crushed by the world
Built by our God
Igniting the feeling
Reciting the promises
Trying to force forward
While everyone is pushing back on us
I see a crack...
Fix it! Quickly
Before we began to leak
Our hearts can not seperate
We're in it too deep
Does oxygen fill your lungs when I'm not in your presence?
I know I can't breathe
I can't even see
You are my senses, my steer, my king
Is it true your smile expands when I call out your name?
Can you feel the shock when we kiss?
When I'm wrapped in your arms
I melt
Like chocolate bliss
See it's me
I'm your woman
Imperfectly pure
By guarding your heart
I'll make perfectly sure
I'll be your angel
If you stay my cure
Yes, I will love you forever
The one I adore

Favorite Hobby

    When I think of certain activities I enjoy, plenty of hobbies come to mind. Eating, laughing, cleaning, sleeping. Although those activities exist throughout my day, one component i can not go without exerting myself in, is dance. I dance everyday to any type of music, at any moment. Before, during and after school. On the weekends, nothing but dance. Now this "dance" I speak of is not wiggles of the arms or bounces of my feet. It is moves, choreography. I got into dance when I was extremely young. My family says I was creating steps in my mom's stomach. If I know how to do anything, it would be telling a story through my body. That is why my blog is entitles "Listen to my, VOICE" and my user name is VoiceOfTheBody. This is how I speak. How I express who I was, who I am, and what I will be. Ask anyone what I love to do,those who know me will say dance. On the other hand, those who think they know me will say "talk". Dance makes me feel free, I know it can never give up on me. I want dance to be my future and be apart of my person forever. I promise to represent it with my best. Spanish, Hip-Hop, Belly and Contemporary all scream my name.... and once I hear  their call, I speak for them. Dance, Passion, Sacrifice, Obsession.

Music

    Since dancing is my life, I always find a beat that I love just so that I can focus on what I am trying to "say". Music is such an asset to my daily activities. Car rides, studying time, cooking dinner time, it always seems that I have my speakers on high and my Pandora playing for hours non stop. I can not really say I have a favorite type of music. I literally listen to everything. Dub step, country, R & B, Latin & more. Whatever is catchy, beautiful, upbeat, slow/romantic. Anything that my ears find attractive, I search it, I play it, I love it. One person I really enjoy listening to is Demi Lovato. She has songs that relate to me & I like listening to those mostly. Alicia Keys is a woman that really teaches me morals through her music. "Girl On Fire" is a song of hers that I love to sing! When singers/artists bring out my emotions in a song, is when I really feel connected to the world of music, & less alone. Songs that consists of lyrics relating to "We Are Young", "you only live once", "Me, Myself, & Time", "Unstoppable", "Titanium", "Fall" & more: grab my attention. There is no greater feeling than knowing people who are in a position where I want to be in the future, have been through similar troubles. Music is relaxing, music is relevant, music is real.

I Am Bigger

My feet planted to the ground

everything surrounding me seems bigger

the people who dive into my heart says the person I am can be as big as I want

truth or not, the statement hits me

pushing & pulling me closer to my dreams

Do I make a move for it?

Do I run after what I love?

Do I continue standing small letting everything gaze over me?

Here I go

Always starting something then backing out

But I promise not this time

The other moments I had reason, a purpose

Now I just realize them

I want it

Here I go

Freeing myself from the darkness I've only seen

Unlocking myself from the cave I've lived in

Planning escapes

Making changes

Believing in promises

Foretelling my future

Here I go

I am bigger