Forgiveness, Inspired by Frankenstein...

"Forgive me"
I apologize for not apologizing
For my reaction was unjust
I resented the lies
We are not synchronized

I apologize for not realizing
You can't even trust
I ignored your jealous cries
We are not synchronized

I apologize to you for the attention you misplaced
Your scared
I tell by your choices
I have your lies traced

Please understand life is difficult
And you can never escape
If we can live without tears it'd be a miracle
The events are one long tape

See memories stick
History repeats
Love lasts
While fire heats
Hearts break
Hands go numb
Eyes cry
And then your done

Right when you think you've lost control
You grab a ticket from the toll
Now I see you driving
Fast and proud
Speeding to your destination
Silently screaming loud
When you thought you couldnt handle
You pushed and you hurt

So if you would please forgive me for expecting the worst
Your a creation of God
The greatest creation on Earth

I apologize for not accepting you are my brother
I must love you from a distance
So I pray your ways become straight
Please Forgive Me for finding out so late... 

Poem I wrote.

Love&Companionship

Most people can agree that everyone wants someone. Why is this? Well as humans we have built in our heart and minds the great yet detrimental asset to ourselves, being able to feel or having emotions. Many look for soul mates or even just a best friend. Humans like being assured that someone no matter the race, sex, or background; will be there to support them and hug them when needed. It is important to always let oneself be available to be loved, because others can come to feel unwanted. Then those feelings that I spoke of earlier become negative and can overcome your happiness. This is called depression, in which we would want to avoid feeling. I find joy with my family but also close fiends, close friends that no matter what someone says or does- forgiveness andcompassion  come into play and suddenly you remember why you love them in the first place. Love can take over the heart and cause woman and men to feel important and to believe in happiness. So come on, let us go find love. 

Rejection.

Rejection sucks, people now a days find that accepting people for being different just is not an option. It's hard to keep my head up continuously in school and dealing with people at work or anyone else that has the tendency of judging. But us as humans that deal with this daily need to understand that rejection is really a waste, because why deny someone of their differences when no one is the same anyway? No one has a exact "twin" so to speak. And shadows don't count. I dot agree with rejection I think that everyone should accept people into their daily life because honestly their not going anywhere. I had a video for this blog but unfortunately it won't upload. Stop judging, start loving. Accept the fact that bing normal is really to be different.

Hard Project.

My biggest project of sophomore year was my atom project. I had the element CU or copper. This project was difficult because I had to build on atom & I do not do good on constructing objects. I had to make a stand and other parts of this atom. Like make it look free standing. This was stressful because I waited until the last minute. Which is never good... I worked on this project day and night. The last couple nights I had left. The results were not disappointing though. I ended up getting an A on this project which made me really happy. I was so excited that I succeeded although I learned not to procrastinate next time.

Exploration...

    There are many examples to look at that helps ones open their minds to the idea of discovery. We have learned about men who have explored the Earth and found that it is NOT flat. Or how man invented electricity. How about America's greatest accomplishment? Man walking on the moon. Technology has definitely changed and improve.
    People are curious on what is beneficial for society today and what we might need to stay away from. This earth has essentials we need, but we need to know what we are dealing with. Finding out facts on elements of this world might also give us confidence in survival. Examples like cure for diabetes, flu, and other sicknesses have been treated because of the urge to explore. We can hopefully find cure for cancer and an aid for poverty with this dedication.
     Of course it does not seem easy, and it is not however it involves self sacrificing of time and energy. Being dedicated to an exploration might included some sleepless nights, and long hours of research. So obviously one who wishes to discover something currently unknown will need to accept the responsibility of having the title "explorer". I surely appreciate certain aspects of our world today and we have the explorers to thank!

Truth V.S Lie

    Many people are comfortable with choosing a lie over the truth because that seems to be the easy way out. Everyone lies, sometimes unable to control it. When I can control it, I am against telling a lie to a person that I love. If some random person was trying to be all in my business I would not mind telling them a load of bologna just for them to quit being so nosy. As far as my family and other people I love are concerned, I think no matter how tough a situation may be; letting them know even a glimpse of the truth is what they deserve. What happens when someone tells a lie, is that they have to cover that lie up with a lie. Eventually they fool themselves into believing that all those lies, are the truth. That can be very detrimental to our relationship with friends/family. Plus it can be dangerous with ourselves. My parents always tell me "the truth comes out" and sad to say it does. I learned the hard way. It is always better to be real than to make things up and have everyone confused. People always judge the truth or the lie. That is just humankind's way of trying to accept issues. As long an one person is honest it will save heartache for all the people they know in the future.

Essay Update

Essay Prompt: Informing an adult about your high school struggles, accomplishments, & dreams.

    During my high school experience I have encountered many difficult situations. It has not been easy, however there has been memories that I can never forget and moments that have motivated me to do more with myself. High school is really helping me take the steps needed to allow me happiness and success in my future. As I said before, happiness is apart of this experience although there are serious struggles.
   
    In high school I have come to understand the consequences of procrastination. Every time I procrastinate it causes bad grades. This is because of lack of preparation. Also, procrastination causes stress. When unprepared and with a limited time, I have to rush and cram things into my schedule. A choice to do what I want and to do or what I needed to do, came in. Being unbalanced is scary and unsafe for my future. I needed ways to overcome the weakness in my academic life.

    Despite the troubles and hardships I have made more than one accomplishment. I have figured out different techniques in order to see myself succeed. Working hard. Just recently I had got my first C on my physical science test. It made me happy to know I can get that grade in a subject that I have much trouble in. I have made friends with teachers and tutors and have put trust in what they teach me as far as information but also skills. I have also been able to create a dance club with students from my school, this helps me stay focused on my dreams and focal point of my future.

    What I hope to accomplish from here on into my future is graduating with my high school diploma and an Associate's degree in Arts from Early College High School at LCCC. I hope to teach as a dance teacher. Expand my learning at a university, and use the knowledge I have learned from high school to be successful in college. Most importantly make the ones who care most about me proud. When I do I will thank everyone who has never let me give up.

    In conclusion, a struggle such as procrastination has in some way help me grow. I have taken big steps toward a better standing for myself now and in the future. Going after things I love and will always cherish. I know I will make it through the ups and downs of high school. As I move forward towards my aspirations I come to understand myself more of a leader and less of a confused teenager. Joyfulness is a great aspect to the experience although difficult times may occur.

Cyber Bullying - STOP

Ever since the internet became a good use, students in many schools around the world have misused it. We face an issue in this century, an issue that moves teens to take tragic steps toward hurting themselves, others, or even committing suicide. This harassment and embarrassment through the internet involves rude, hurtful comments about the way people look, smell, speak and much more. This harmful action is known as cyber bullying. Why do people do this? I believe that the people who bully over the internet have a lack of security in themselves. Many have grown up in homes with no parents or parents that paid absolutely no attention to them. People like this are mentally/ emotionally unstable. Many times children can easily type something on the computer, but when it comes to confronting a person in front of their face, they back down. In schools, fighting, gossiping, and harassment can get one expelled. So instead of getting kicked out of school, kids think it is easier to "trash talk" over the internet where everyone else can see and laugh. They let themselves be entertained at the cruel words spread about one person. True or not, these comments should NOT be shared with the whole world. I have personally been cyber bullied myself, by a girl in my school. She did this to my friend as well. I have more kindness in my heart than to spread her name around the internet. I respect her even though she has brought me much heart ache. Actually, I truthfully feel so sorry for her. I wish she did not embarrass herself as much as she has. Now why did I not bully back? I am not weak. I have more strength. Never fight fire back. Just blow it out so to speak. If I seen someone allowing themselves to get bullied, I would speak up, which I have. Telling someone is always better than holding it in. I would know this... So speak up! Stay strong and stand tall! I am not alone. I never will be. For those who find bullying a hobby, think before you act! If people could just realize that everyone in some way is equal... Evey one will be much happier.

What's yours, is yours

    People in the world often touch, look at, or take items that do not belong to them. Many believe that taking others belongings is "okay" or justifiable. However they have absolutely no right, in my opinion. No doubt citizens of any family, organization, or community will fight for what is theirs. Sometimes people might have a "reason" for example people may steal money, maybe to feed their family. This is an example of someone taking money that does not belong to them probably because they need it. When we need something we have to work to get it. When we want something we should wait until our circumstances allow us to go get it. Everyone is responsible for their own belongings. I think of a movie, "the Little Mermaid", when the evil Ursaula stole Ariel's voice. How Ariel's friends and family fought to get her beautiful voice back to her. It is interesting because stealing might not only be objects but also emotions, talents and whatever else. I think people should always remember that what is theirs, is theirs. Work for what you deserve and you will receive it. Do not take away from anyone else.

What is... Sacrifice

I am almost certain most may  know or have heard of someone who has risked their life for others. Most Christians might think of Jesus. For others they might think of someone in which they have read about. What is an act of offering something precious of yours? The word sacrifice can be used under plenty of circumstances, for example: Sacrificing blood, food or animals to God. Even dying for someone right now. If a young child is in the middle of a fight and a parent of friend steps in, this will be sacrificing time and energy that is theirs for someone that they know and care about, not willing to let them get hurt. People have a conscience and heart. Figuratively speaking, since we all have hearts and consciences it is the way we use them that differs self-sacrificing humans contrasted to the ones who will do what is nesscessary to save themselves first. I believe that people who put others before themselves are humble, their heart condition is in the good. They would not mind spending time for others before themselves and they may even die for people. Not only ones they love but anyone who seems to be in trouble. If they have something important to get done and something else comes up that situation will become more important to them and that is sacrifice. As for the people who do what they want first, those men are haughty and greedy. Which will cause them great heart ache in the long run.

Grandmother Charlotte

My "mama" died when I just turning one year old, she was my mother's mother. I met her when I was maybe 9 months, of course that is an age in which I was not done developing a mind of my own. I have no memory of her. If I could meet one person from the past it would be her because she had her ways of raising my mother and my mother has her mother's ways of raising me and my sister. I imagine us dancing, Salsa, all around her little house in California. I love to dance, so does my mother therefore I assume she would as well. Only if this could happen, I believe that we would wake up early on special days and prepare big dinners for the family to join us at night. My mother gets her cooking skills from Charlotte. If my mama was still alive, I would like to ask her how she overcame the troubles I have heard she experienced. If she had ever felt like giving up, or if days she just cried without holding a specific reason in her hand. I can look at a picture of her when she was 20 years old and see through her eyes that she was strong. Her responses to me would probably be something like, "God doesn't give you anything you can't handle" or, "Remain strong Nuni bug, I know you'll take the right steps and leave your footprints in the sand". Charlotte raised my mother well, my mother raised me the best she could. I hope one day I can be a great mother and not disappoint either one of them.

Winter Vacation on the Beach

    Christmas break for me was warm, sunny, and surrounded by tons of oranges. I live in Ohio but I visited the Sunshine state, Florida. My father's family and my friends live down there. Every time I visit I go to the amusement parks, and I will love those places until the day I die. However this year was my year to relax, catch up with family, and visit the best of the best beaches down there. I enjoyed many fun activities but the one moment that I am sharing today with my blog is that day of nothing but sand in my feet, seagulls at my bag of snacks, and the Sun's light-rays hitting my eyes. When being by the water I really feel a sense of burden being lifted up off of my shoulders. It helps me to free my mind of worries and focus of myself along with people/choices that are important to me. Sometimes people tend to not give themselves enough credit for doing what they do... In the moment, I knew I was feeling how I deserved to. In that point in time I ran through the ocean and seen the most beautiful scenes. This really was the highlight to my vacation.